I like to think that I have unwavering faith.
At times I really think that I do.
Then there are times in my life that I struggle. Really struggle.
Why aren't things going the way I had planned. Why do I feel all alone?
Now feeling this way seems silly, cause I know that I am truly blessed.
I have a great family.
I have the best Husband who works so hard for me and our kids, and upholds his priesthood.
I am a blessed mother of four beautiful children, who love me unconditionally.
I have a beautiful home, that keeps me warm, safe, dry, and a place of safe haven.
And I have a strong faith and belief in my Savior.
So why do I have these moments when that faith waivers?
I know that we are here to be tested. Everyone has different trials. And so maybe this is mine.
I was just telling a friend that the last time I have felt the way I've been feeling was when Ryan was sick.
Oh my life was a lot more complicated then. On some level I was allowed to feel the way I was feeling. But not now. Everything is good! I should be in a state of bliss.
The past week and a half though, I feel like I'm on the edge. A huge pit in my stomach.
On the verge of tears for no good reason.
As I got down on my knees and asked my Heavenly Father for peace last night, truly asked, I felt an overwhelming feeling of faith.
This morning as I browsed You Tube I came across the message from last General Conference
from Jeffrey R. Holland about the Book Of Mormon.
Again I had an overwhelming feeling of faith and comfort.
The message was just as powerful the second time around as the first.
I know that I will have more trials in my life.
The road is not always easy.
But If I continue to have faith, and trust in my Savior, those trials I go through will one day become my strengths. If we never feel adversity how can we know how great we have it, or how blessed we truly are!
I am grateful for Joseph Smith and the courage he had to stand steadfast to what he believed to be true! Cause really the easy road would have been to walk away.
But he didn't, and I will forever be grateful for his sacrifice, so that we could have this wonderful book, and this wonderful gospel.
At times I really think that I do.
Then there are times in my life that I struggle. Really struggle.
Why aren't things going the way I had planned. Why do I feel all alone?
Now feeling this way seems silly, cause I know that I am truly blessed.
I have a great family.
I have the best Husband who works so hard for me and our kids, and upholds his priesthood.
I am a blessed mother of four beautiful children, who love me unconditionally.
I have a beautiful home, that keeps me warm, safe, dry, and a place of safe haven.
And I have a strong faith and belief in my Savior.
So why do I have these moments when that faith waivers?
I know that we are here to be tested. Everyone has different trials. And so maybe this is mine.
I was just telling a friend that the last time I have felt the way I've been feeling was when Ryan was sick.
Oh my life was a lot more complicated then. On some level I was allowed to feel the way I was feeling. But not now. Everything is good! I should be in a state of bliss.
The past week and a half though, I feel like I'm on the edge. A huge pit in my stomach.
On the verge of tears for no good reason.
As I got down on my knees and asked my Heavenly Father for peace last night, truly asked, I felt an overwhelming feeling of faith.
This morning as I browsed You Tube I came across the message from last General Conference
from Jeffrey R. Holland about the Book Of Mormon.
Again I had an overwhelming feeling of faith and comfort.
The message was just as powerful the second time around as the first.
I know that I will have more trials in my life.
The road is not always easy.
But If I continue to have faith, and trust in my Savior, those trials I go through will one day become my strengths. If we never feel adversity how can we know how great we have it, or how blessed we truly are!
I am grateful for Joseph Smith and the courage he had to stand steadfast to what he believed to be true! Cause really the easy road would have been to walk away.
But he didn't, and I will forever be grateful for his sacrifice, so that we could have this wonderful book, and this wonderful gospel.
2 comments:
Thank you Katie!! Your post was exactly what I needed. We all feel like that at times, and it always seems to bring us back to being closer to our Heavenly Father...by readingour scriptures and such. When we feel the Spirit so strongly while reading the Book of Mormon, we can't help but feel happier. I know I feel happier and in less of a funk when I am drawing myself closer unto HIM. You are a great mother, wife, and daughter of God. And you are a great friend! You will get through this. :) Love you.
Love you so much!! Just remember that everything is possible through him. When I have times like this I just keep smiling, even if it's not real. You have to keep going for the people around you who love you more than anything. You're amazing!
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