Friday, July 16, 2010

You know enough.

This simple statement has been somewhat comforting to me today.
I have been having one of those days, reflecting on all the things that are going on in my life.
This summer has been full of trials for me. Some good, some bad, which has had me questioning, do I really KNOW enough?!
I'm I certain that what I am doing hear on this earth truly matters?
Is this stay at home mother thing truly is my calling?
Will I really see my loved ones again?

It seems that when tragedy, heartache, or the mundane tasks of motherhood pull at me I have these thoughts.
Today was was reflecting on these thoughts, and came across some wonderful messages.
I don't have to have all the answers!
As long as I know that MY Savior lives, he died for me, atoned for my sins. All things are possible. I know enough. I may not know all, but that is not the purpose of this life.
I do know I will see my family again!
I may not understand why somethings happen on this earth, but I have my FAITH in the gospel of Jesus Christ to help me through those rough moments.

I had an incredibly hard time when my grandmother passed away.
She was the world to me. I couldn't have asked for a better lady to be MY grandma!
But as I attended her funeral, I knew that this would not be the last time I saw her.

I spent the last couple weeks in Utah.
I was able to spend quite a bit of time with my cousins.
I tried ever so hard to not think about what was happening to my cousin Jared.
I tried not to question why someone so young, with a young wife and 4 beautiful kids has to be taken from this life so prematurely.
This is the part that I do not know. And this is where I need to rely on my faith that I know enough. This beautiful family will be together again. For Jared it will fly by before he has his family in his arms again. For those of us left behind, we need to carry that with us and trust in our Savior.

This week my sister in laws cousin was tragically killed.
It's so hard to understand or even imagine why someone would want to end another persons life. Often without a second thought.
This was something we knew we would face as we accepted the mission to come on this earth. Gain a body. And have our free agency. Unfortunately this does not keep us out of the path of those that choose to forget the savior.
This is so HARD for me to comprehend.
Once again falling back on the FAITH and knowledge that I do have a testimony in the Savior.
Life may be hard, complicated, and sometimes downright unfair.
But if I continue to put my trust in the LORD I will know the truth of all things.
I do know that what I do here on earth matters.
A LOT. I am so blessed that I get to be a mother! And I couldn't have asked for 4 more perfect special spirits to try and do the best job I can at motherhood.(hopefully I don't screw the up for life...:)
No matter the trials that come my way, I know that I do know enough; and that is a firm belief in the Savior.




2 comments:

Holly June said...

Loved this, Katie.
Thank you. :)
Loves.

mapmaker's wife said...

I really like the message of "you know enough"... especially when applied to the fact that I know God loves us. I do know that and really it is enough. That's why I love when Nephi says something like "I know that He loveth His children, nevertheless I do not know the meaning of all things."

-Julie